I put this throwback photo up as this post's cover just to show you how it all started. In early 2014, I decided to start blogging about motherhood and my journey of moving to the U.S. with my family. I didn't really think about making money from it or having a huge following, although I've always thought that it would be nice to get recognized somehow.
I mostly wrote about life lessons I had learned from everyday moments as a young mom and wife, about 4 to 8 times a month. Nothing crazy or ambitious, and back then, I only had about 500 followers on instagram. I didn't post everyday on social media. And! I took ALL of my photos only with my iPhone 4s.
Remember this photo? Taken on my anniversary morning,with an iPhone. And J was a little over 1 year old. I remember shocked seeing '200 likes' on my instagram page for the first time lol.
Fast forward to today, I have over 11k followers on instagram, I get invitations to local lifestyle events, tons of partnership with different brands, photographers taking my photos, a fancy camera for me to take photos on my own, a new computer and softwares to edit everything from photos to videos (oh yeah, I have a youtube channel) - I mean, it's safe to say that my blogging life has been upgraded to a new level of influence, or so I thought.
According to the statistics though, that isn't the case here. My readership has actually dropped almost 4 times since last year!
But what happened? I didn't even try last year. I didn't even post that often on instagram last year. I didn't even get invited to fancy events last year. Nobody in Dallas even knew me last year! I was a regular stay-at-home mom last year!
Wait, is that why?
Have I grown apart from my original purpose of blogging which was to inspire young mothers and women?
This statistic has proven this powerful statement right here :
Having popularity is not the same as having influence.
I was touching so many lives last year without even trying! Now, I'm making money yes, I'm not gonna lie to you. But I feel like I do not affect as many people as I did last year, personally. How is that possible? I really don't know.
But I know this : I can breathe now.
I can focus on my family now and not neglect them over my editing and blogging.
I don't have to worry about partnerships and getting invitations to events.
I can just breathe. And be.
And I can to go back to sharing my heart out, without getting too personal (you know my style, I do not treat my blog or social media as my diary, I treat it as an outlet for me to share the lessons I've learned. So I won't give away personal details that are not necessary on the internet lol).
Because at the end of the day, this broken world craves for hope, love, and light. And if I could shine just a little, I could make an impact in someone's life.
For those of you who have stuck with me throughout the changes, thank you :) I'm learning to balance it all. I'm not gonna stop doing business of course, but I will definitely pour out my heart more. Thanks again, I am grateful for y'all!
*cover photo by Shakti Siddarta, Bishop Art photo by Megan Weaver